I just reread the last post again where it described how crazy I am :p (Okay, wait, no, I should learn to only use as much emoticons on texts, turns out people don't actually use as much emojis and shits, hmm maybe they don't even use as much in text from what I observed. But well why should I change this to cope with them, I mean it's not actually a big deal it's just a way I use to express myself, which I happen to use very often. Okay now I'm babbling again. Argh anyways haha). It's refreshing how positive we sound in recent posts and how the white background of the blog feels like the pale sunshine instead of the white from monotone dullness now. Yay!
I'm so happy for you :) I know I say this everytime you find a new guy (I think?), but I'm always glad to see you happy. As long as whoever the guy is makes you happy I think the world is fine :) (Well, technically we're still teenagers and it's not like we have to consider all those financial economic aspect shits, we're just here to have fun and be loving atm!). No it's never tmi hehee (thanks to 12 years of girls schools, not much boundaries about girls-to-girls startles me anymore HAHHA feel free to surprise me anytime tho lol). I think you're gonna remember that 24hrs even when you get older :) It was chill and relaxing and you guys had so much fun! The scene (yes I'm picturing it in cinematic way lol) you guys had on the roof oh gosh that's beautiful. Kinda reminds me of the era where The Virgin Suicides was produced (well the 90s? I'm never good at distinguishing the eras I hope I'm telling it right lol), not bcs of the sad movie definitely lol, but that beautiful soft tone of color, how things are relaxing, comfortable, the effortless. Okay I have no idea what a caste system is but it's a thing from India only? So..he's a priest? You better explain this little pyramid thing to me hahaha. I know it's a bummer that he's leaving so soon, but in a way I guess it's beneficial that it allowed the both of you to be really free and just spontaneously enjoy the few weeks remaining, cus the future is so uncertain. Just enjoy it and have fun baby! Like how you already are doing *qwertqwert* (backspaced three times to decide on whether i wanna call you 'babe' or 'baby', gosh I suck at this where did all my slightly romantic nerves went, or were they never here lol).
As for HHG, I know it's difficult, after all he meant so much to you and stood such an important place in your life for the past few months. But it will be alright! I assure you! If this Brazilian guy insist on getting jealous (don't tell me you didn't at least enjoyed a bit of his jealousy HAHAHA) and mad and pissed, let him be, let him be that motherfucking crybaby. If he want something he should have go for it, let alone he want someone. (How come I feel like I have such bigger spiritual literary balls than most guys these days, argh.) It's the cruel cold harsh truth to say that all he care is you but not you, you physically but not what you are inside (WHICH, I gotta say your inside spiritual radness stuffs shine more than a diamond but like a effing sun size diamond, or I should say shines like a sun...whichever shines brighter! :p) Just let him be, he'll live. Life is adventurous and exciting and complicated enough without having to babysit immature crying dudes pissed vulnerable feelings just cus he feel like he's losing something he didn't want to owe when he can. Bleh, he will live. You are so much more than this. Besides seeing how happy you are and comfortable with VKG now just confirms me more on that☺When in doubt, just think of the times (or the 24hrs or whenever you wish! *qwert*) you spent with VKG :) Don't feel guilty about HHG, if anything he should be the one regretting not to have you in his realm in the first place! (...okay the realm thing came from Once Upon A Time..Hahaha).
Ahhhhhhhhhh..you have no idea how soon I started grinning while reading your last letter. Now that I look at it, it's extremely stupid how I _____ (I honestly don't know how to put it so you can just fill in whatever word hahah) over/on/to PA. Come on, I haven't even met the guy, we haven't even talked much (thou idk hwy from the first time we talk (AND ITS ONLY EFFING FACEBOOK MSG) I already got nervous so quickly! Argh it doesn't make sense! But then it never do...). I still remember how I totally went into crazy bitch mode (most crazy I've seen myself in lol literally lol) and spam bomb your messages the night I talk to him hahaha. I don't know, I'm crazy but not like this. Even with WI it wasn't like this, but oh well the story with WI is different, I wasn't attracted right from the start, or maybe I am..anyways! I guess perhaps every time it's different in its own way..? But I don't know..there IS just something about this guy, AND THIS IS NO GOOD! (And I just realize how important it is for us to type their names in these random-not-so-random initials cus I just almost wanted to type his name to replace the word guy in two lines ago hahaha.
Yea it's good, in how it helped me to get off the WI boat even easier. I really didn't expect that haha, I was expecting to fall more into that deep shit hole as days go by and as the 8000miles distance get shortened, or well at least I didn't expect to get off before I even got there. I've thought about how I might focus on school and the city so much that I wouldn't care about him no more (cus the time I was there in the last summer I really felt so free and unattached to WI despite random moments that I see posters or stuffs about his State). So this is surprising haha. I've been thinking about this a bit. I guess one of the other many reasons was that I got the closure I so desperately needed from the dream where I dreamt of him, in that schoolbus thingy as a cop or detective or something and sat next to me for the whole night, and things were just like old times, and even better, where he remembers my favorite snack, and all that haha (feeling so LDR suddenly). I guess the closure might just be the thing what I actually needs, after all these years. And having that dreamt might just had filled up that hole created so long ago, afterall I've always been a bit suspecting Imma just be in love with the idea of WI. Anyways☺
HAHAHAHAHA it's funny how you got so excited over CNB lol (sounds like a television channel HAHAH so pro) Idk, I enjoy those little flirtatious convos with him but I'm definitely not into him, or not now at least. He's the kind of guy I wanna befrd with and I can see how close I might be with him in the future like me and Seraph lol (I do like the sound of his name tho, it'll be a good name to moan about lol #dirtyminded#tmi). Idk...like to be very honest I really think he's your type of guy lol (including his looks) And I'll definitely introduce you both if me and him ever became frds of that sort and if you won't mind/want/need one lol Idk hahaaha I don't know about his movie preferences but he's a cool dude that enjoys writing poetry as well lol and I remember when we first started snapchatting he was reading a book about Zen (and something related to art and images from Zen? can't remember). Idk..OKAY NO WAIT PA IS INDEED DREAMY ARGH HELP ME HELP ME
I'm almost hundred percent sure he doesn't look as dreamy as that dreamy eyes pic and that's probably his most dreamy pic ever HAHAH (except if he has some in bed pics then that's another story qwertqwertqwert *monkeyscovereyes*) But arghhhhh idk..I really don't know what is it about him! Yea physical features apart honestly I don't know much about him right!? (Tho knowing me you know I don't need to know much before falling...ARGH NO NOT FALLING! And that applies to my random successful stalking in HK lol). I don't know...ah okay, and here's a thing I haven't tell you. Everyone's putting up snapchat stories almost daily so I've put up more too and he didn't read the last two (idk I read everyones' snapchat stories to get rid of the noti lol) but he read it ytd (the buffet dessert corner one if you know what I'm talking about arghh nvm). Arghhh idk. Oh btw he's fun, he's really fun. Okay I should shut up cus idk how many times I've been saying this already arghhhh he probs isn't that fun irl! Yea! He might be boring! But wait no he's going to art school and he always look like he's having fun...and his NAME. PA! Argh okay I'll shut up here aghhhh~_~ (want to not type as much emoticons really but this just has to be here hahaha)
Yea thanks! I feel so much better not although I wasn't in there the past weekend, probs because I knew about that inside joke HAHAHA. Idk why but I've been able to keep convos flowing with people with Chinese last names and Indian last names but not much with the White people..that's weird..argh Idk. I'm super excited about registering the classes tho! It's really getting closer and closer woopwoopwopp! (Oh and fyi CNB does random 'lalala' and 'woot' in txts, which is pretty cute, and in which I'll admit it's super cute if it's from PA HAHAHAA tho I'll think he's cute anyways no matter what he says and he will indeed be cute anyways no matter what he says -_-). Argh stop stop stop soya *monkeycoverseyes* Btw do you know you can actually see PA's pic if you google his name *moremonkeys* I just tried it at work cus work is boring and ....*monkeysssss* there's a pic of him in google results in his sports gear. *millionmonkeysinserthere* (okay. insert. hmm.) Okay Soya, he's just good looking, and not even handsome yet, just good looking, hmm, argh, ARGH *helpjoshihelpconvincemymind*
Argh. Yea I'm just shallow on this one. Right right right? Uargh but then I really do like his work and I think his choice of entertainments is good lol The TVs and movies he watch are good. I know WI did pick out a great one on HIMYM but Supernatural really..7 seasons of bloodiness (and it's still ongoing)(and it's still kinda the same plots) really. Oh well maybe I'm just saying this cus I don't have a crush/love/in love with WI anymore (tho I've always been on my own on that) ARGH ANYWAYS.................................arghokayno. PA is really the whole package Joshi please help me to roll the fuck away ):
Okay this letter is too long lol And I can't stand myself I've really rant too much on this piece lol I hope you don't hate me or dislike me because of this lol If you do, please don't let me know lol I was lerk/lurking around and found this song called Counting Stars by One Republic :) Not sure if you've heard of that and not sure if it sounds good cus I can't play music atm lol But judging on the lyrics I think you can give it a try :) Not sure if counting down sounds as good to you anymore (ouch) but I'm looking forward to the day when you're back and we can start cross off all those items on our to-do lists as well as to plan our 4 days getaway (okay not really, we'll be just-got-back at that time lol) :D:D
Love you shinning sun-diamond thingy gorgeous thing:D
Soya xxx
P.P.S. I've always love dudes with good sense (taste? choice? bleh) in movies :D and vkg and yours seems to be going really well tgt plus he cares, plus he dont force you into anythg or rush you in anyways plus hes a beast on the inside qwertqwertqwert lol mmhmmm~
P.P.P.S. You need to check this shirt out! ☞http://bit.do/dlfs
P.P.P.P.S. Idk why there's this song I kept associating with PA since after the day we talked..see title *monkeyshere* (okay it's not entirely the lyrics! or maybe just a few lines..idk I didn't look into it in details I didn't look it up lol too scared if i attach more feelings to songs with a guy I haven't even met)(Ugh)
P.P.P.P.P.S. I know I'm abusing the P.S.s and this is annoying lol I should probs had started a new paragraph but oh well nvm lol
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