I apologize in advance if I talk too much about myself in this letter or words just get cramped up cus I'm actually really sleepy right now but I really wanna get the feelings outta my chest before going to rest. (So don't feel guilty about it :p)
It's funny how guys you meet this year are either exchange students or upcoming graduates. I guess in a way it's easier to connect to people of that kind being an international student and as a freshman, but it's kinda sad for how many farewells and goodbyes you have to say already in your first year of study :| I hope it don't happen as often again next semester. It's not that those aren't nice people or whatever, but we both know saying goodbyes isn't easy, if you care :|
I'm glad how you sound so much happier in this letter!:D (Any chance influenced by me a little :p?) So I'll assume this VKG is a good dude (at least so far and despite all the tmi intimate moments :p). At least he cares about you and cares about your feelings and concerns and not just for himself, that I really appreciate :) (got my standards so much lower and lower and lowering now lol) (okay that's unrelated don't get me wrong :p just meant how easy it is now to cheer me up lol). Anyhow, I think one of the greatest (or maybe really the greatest) feeling in the world is that you can find someone you feel comfortable with and get gross tgt HAHAHA. Okay joking, but yea it's a blessing to find someone you feel comfortable with and have much in common :D I feel happy for you! Though this is less passionate than what happens with HHG, but this is comfier, and easier, as in you don't have to try hard and constantly concerning about all kinds of everything or force yourself. You're just comfortable with him :) (okay I might have ff-ed a bit about how comfortable it is so correct me if I'm wrong :D).
Hmm..okay I'm not gonna repeat my opinions here so just rant to me anytime when you wanna talk about you know who HAHHA
Okay. Let me start with the easy-to-describe bits. So I just watched Fight Club cus 1-it's his favourite movie (source: pretty obviously from another Facebook post), 2-it's the movie with giant pink engraved soap on that poster that I was always kinda curious cus it looks like a giant piece of gum. Oh and 3-it's a classic, I heard lol. So the movie was good, cus I didn't have any thoughts about shutting it off early or fastspeeding the movie at any point. Though it's not my typical movie genre but it was a good watch so I continued. Then I died. Yea I died. *spoiler alert* Idk why but I think the ending of this movie is the most romantic movie scene I've ever seen. Or at least to my taste hahaha. Idk, well maybe it's cus my subconscious was looking for a reason for me to like this movie so it chose the ending of it cus it's desperate as that, but I really liked it. It's beautiful and I don't know why, I just ..that's my favourite romantic movie scene of all time haha, and I've watched TONS of romcoms and gluey gross romantic stuffs. Idk, then it reminded me I died, again.
Maybe when I meet him in person I won't like him as much or won't like him at all. Cus he's just cocky as hell (though he can totally rock that)...*left finger pointing right finger*. Anyways, for now at this instance this is what I feel. So when I was on the road today, the thought hit me. I know the world is unfair in every sort and in many different ways, and he's totally one of them. Seriously, how can you be good looking with dreamy eyes (okay he's not HANDSOME handsome, but goodlooking enough..GAWR THOSE EYES!), tall with perfectly muscled body (obviously he goes to gym, and he plays sports that I know, okok it's all camera angle works! Argh!), funny and by funny I mean really FUN, have great internet connections at all times (yes this is a point and he does replies like lightspeed when he does replies), has great talent in art (he wasn't suppose to! he's suppose to be a jork! or a goodlooking ivyleague someone or someone that got grades good enough to at least get into his desire major or sth, but talents!) (gawr yes I love what he draws, even if it's not from him, those illustrations alone catches my attention), got great taste in movies (well.), parties hard (argh I'm starting to babble but whatever) and shits gosh I don't even wanna go detail anymore. Told ya he's easily likeable :| I'm not asking for a chance or anything, for god's sake I might not even like him irl. He is cocky as hell have I told you about his (abandoned) Twitter username? Urg. But then the thing he does and he says does catches my attention not only because it's his name in blue on the left handside, but I really do like those stuffs! And..argh. This is shit.
Maybe he is my type. Idk. Maybe the kind of jerk like the WI that is funny and does nothing wrong and we speak common language and share different channels that you can tell people aren't part of and has great eyes that looks like it could just suck me in is what eats me.
Not sure if the above pic is related. It just looks pretty haha.
Anyways, when you're like me (or at least this feels like this), when you've met enough wrong people, you know it even when it's just hints of the right one.
Who knows,
Maybe I'm just looking for you
Perhaps all along it's just a story I put up to look for another you to start over with me again.
Or maybe just so happens, they got things in common. And I fell and am falling for the both.
I tremble.
You're gonna eat me alive.
Haha, not even sure how to end this letter. But I guess I'll end it here. Not good at composing myself at 3am but well you got the idea (at least a vague one) of what I'm trying to say haha. Digging out feelings tires me out, my hyper guards are temporarily switching shifts. I should get some sleep now.
See you at Chow's,
Soya
xxx
P.S. Not necessarily PA, but my brain's kinda playing Oberhofer HEART on auto haha
Okay, after adding the title I realize I'm not done. He has it all. Yea, even his friends are all hot and partylovin bikiniwearing gals, with great body and easy casual (I assume Chill) personality, what else can I offer. What more can I offer. What would he possibly want from me, nothing. He won't want nothing to do with me. Any girls around him in/not yet but will be in his circle/community are hot, clever, pretty, talented and shits. Nah, just STFU Soya. You're useless here. Hail to my positivity. That doesn't apply here nor change facts. I said I don't care and there will be people and other people and shits, but idk. There's just something about this guy haha.
PP.S. The last time I said 'There's just something about this guy'...elle oh elle.
PPPS. Your letter gave me so much joy it lightened my day J
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