J: Ain't no birthday blues for you *wink*

Dear Soya,

First things first, happy vagina-departure-memorial day! You have been breathing and battling life for 20 years and are still going strong...so props to you, bae! I'm so glad you're born because if you weren't born, then I wouldn't have my hubby dearest to pick up my shits and to love me like I am. And guess I gotta thank Mama Soya for raising such a rare breed lol. Wishing you a wonderful, magnificent, and artsy-fartsy year full of love and joy and all that sparkles. Hope cupid will shoot you straight in the heart this year and hook you up with a hottie mc-naughty!

Okay, back to the main things.

The friend you were talking about has a name that begins with a "Y", right? Heehee I totally had this feeling before with XX and my ex-rmm. Both of them are drama queens and like I did care about their shit before, but afterwards, after all the mess they've created and dragged me into, I have gotten so tired of their shit that I don't bother and don't give a single fuck anymore. And let me give you a little tip, or well I'm pretty sure you got it covered, but after I got tired of my ex-rmm's shits, I just sort of lived with her but detached emotionally, and I just nodded and say "yea, yea" when she poured her shit-soul to me while watching netflix. So yea, you can still live with her and things will be fine as long as you stay detached. And seriously, don't let your mess-embracing friend stop you from being friends with that guy who lived next door. Fuck that, if she is still in contact with him, why couldn't you? You should not have to give up your friendship for her guy-tactics.

Wow, your friend writes good poems! I agree that artists love deeply and feel deeply, and in a way it sucks. It fucking sucks, but that's for later. Boxers have quite some fandom, eh? Do you think upon your rebound from John you will rebound back to him? And do not feel bad for reading your friend's deepest thoughts and emotions, I mean writers gotta show their work to someone, right? If your friend 100% do not wish for anyone to see the posts, then she wouldn't have posted it on the internet.

And you go, girl! Ridding of the friend request is a great step to moving on and finding your Mr. Right and trust me you will find another crush and another boyfriend next year! It's about time:D And I will be right here watching you and your budding romance coming with my garlic popcorn and my massive glass of margarita.

Phew okay, now it's my turn to rant.

So after a week in Hong Kong, my sister has gotten herself a boyfriend (they met through mutual friend during winter break when the mutual friend brought the beau to visit New York and they've been texting and skyping ever since). I am super happy for her that she is finally out of the single pool and can kiss single life goodbye. But gosh do they move fast. In a week of them being a thing, they've gone out every day (which I understand because soon they will be in the longd-club in a month's time) and she has already met his mom. She also already has a card made at his clubhouse. He told all his friends and family about her, and as I am typing, he is in my apartment and they are planning to go see the sun rise tonight. I told my sister that with this pace they are going, I will hear wedding bells in a month, and see babies poppin' in a year. (Even their song is "Marry You" by Bruno Mars...but that's another story)

But these are not the point, or not the entire point. It's just that seeing them so happy and always together makes me miss vkg so much more. My sister always leaves me to hang out with him while me and her were together, or she comes late to meet up with me after hanging with him, which i guess it's alright. But it's just that it means she is so happy with the guy that she has forgotten about time and I wished vkg were here to make me that happy so that I forget about time and everything else. Ugh, I miss that Indian-dude and I listened to my trigger-song last night during shower because I was really upset and I decided to drown in my grief (which was a bad idea) and then I kept holding back tears all night until I called him and woke him from his sleep and he freaked because I was crying right when he said 'hello'. I hate the distance and I miss him so much more now that I see my sister so happy. I am happy now too with vkg, don't be mistaken. It's just that the happier he makes me feel when we skype, the emptier I feel because the distance fucking sucks.

(me giving millions of fucks as I drown myself in grief and tears lol)

((me being dramatic just ignore me))

And also, my job starts tomorrow, which also fucking sucks. I have already met the crew yesterday at an event and they are not as fun as the ones from last year. They are kinda old, well not old old but late twenties-late thirties-old. And there's another intern, a dude same age as me who studies in Toronto, which makes things better, and we had to wait for the event to begin after setting up for like an hour so me and him sat in a starbucks and had awkward conversations until we talked about smoking weed and trying shrooms lol and things lightened a bit. Anyway, real work begins tomorrow and I will be sure to update you about it.

Sorry there aren't much good news here on my end either. (Well, good news for my sister, I guess?) Come back sooner please! Come claim your birthday dinner and present in hot'n sweaty town. Ugh I have no friends here to hang out with...people are either working or traveling or busy as fuck. The wifey needs some girl time with her broke artsy hubby in Chicago because wifey is lonely and no hubby would want to leave a lonely wifey alone because who know what would happen then? Jks.

Alrighty, tata lovely! Have an awesome awesome birthday!

Love,
Joshi