Thank you so much for the radass card! I laughed and grinned so much while reading it (you really had thought it through about the stuffs you wrote on there didn't you lol). Love it heheheee. *side note: how come curse words are so much more versatile than normal words. Like shits, and asses as shown above, like you could really use these words and fit them in anywhere and they'll always still make sense. E.g. That shit shitted shit fucking shittily bring that shit up and shit to show up to shit, what the fucking shit?!)...okay I'm so off topic lol
So as I figure out how to start the paragraph you're currently reading, I decided to insert a random image of quotes or sth before writing out what's on my mind and that's like the third image on the feed, following a picture of sunflowers with the words SUMMER in white on top of it, and illustrations of two imaginative face by some animation students (i believe). Okay, so, it's super awkward, but here it goes. So the super guilty gift purse I got from my friend. We went to grab food and shop and hang around for the whole day tgt so of course we did talk quite a lot. It was fun, it's been awhile since we hang tgt due to pursefriend's crazybusyschedule and I was working my part time job before hence the large amount of catching up to do. We basically had been going through PF's relationship dilemma the whole day (tbt not that complicated lol but oh well). And at some point of the convo, PF told me about this convo between PF and this mega crushing admirer girl, that the girl was asking about me and why me and PF never got anything going on and if there are like possibilities in the future and whatnot, stuffs like that. Then I throw my head back, laughed, and ask what PF responded. And the reply was: Cus I know there's this guy she really really like. At that instant moment I just bitter-laugh/smile a bit (mini memorylane of you-know-who for a moment), and pretty soon our convo resume again and continue discussing about this girl with mega crush and how PF feels about her (aka. SO DO YOU LIKE HER HUH DONT YOU KNOWWWWW + OH SO YOU LIKE HER BUT NOT LIKING HER ENOUGH + some many other things that makes me sound intelligent and insightful. Jokes, and the capitalization was just for formatting).
Later that day, when we both take the same minibus and leave as PF head back to dorm and I head off to family dinner, I got a mosquito repellent spray from PF cus I'm "hot for bugs" and that's a welfare thing from the students council thingy PF's in. Hmm okay that's basically done with the story telling part tho I know nothing much was mentioned lol. Anyways, so after the dinner when I'm home, looking at that black purse that I love love love while feeling super guilty for receiving sth of this value from a friend that I was gonna pay for it myself, the convo about that mega crushing girl came up to my mind and I couldn't help but think, WAIT, what? What do you mean, so what if there's no him wait what do you mean.
*tried to look for some cute pics to decorate this blogpost where I'm feeling the colors of drugged rainbows but everything's either too romantically-involed or too romantically-involved*
While I'm writing to you, of course it's inevitable to mention a bit of last night lol Aka, the dream filled with PA, literally, FILLED, PACKED, whatever you call it (yes pathetically it's a dream, no romantic encounters last night hahaha I'm more of a lie down and not moving my ass kind of girl). Gosh, I don't think I can tell you what happened there cus I'm already losing most of it, but it was so real I almost forgot it's a dream (which I rarely does, usually, I remember it's a dream when I'm in the dream, as usual as almost every time). Ahhhh so anyways, the story(dream) was really long like it's been carried out a timeline across days (like almost a week). And the last vivid convo/thing I remember was he asking me if he should spend his birthday in Chicago/Hong Kong (yes he speaks canton in my dream while most of the others in that dream doesn't cus THEY AREN'T ASIAN). Oh and idk why this random fact came along but it was like I know that was in september lol Anyways, some more vivid 'symbol' objects that made an appearance was those old Chinese tearing day-by-day calender x3, 2 key chains both with a door/box design so you can open it up and was both in cartoon pattern while one was broken with one door missing and the other wasn't and was Winnie the Pooh-themed (I can't remember the pattern/theme of the broken one tho I rmb it was colored blue in the background), some running shoes (which I remember having close to me in the story cus I was really to LOOK SPORTY and go run around the building anytime, some denim jackets (2 of them I think) that I carried while I was looking for the keys to open the door of my (dorm?) room. That's so random hahaha, maybe I'll google the dream symbol meaning thingys of them (one of the reasons why I bother to so randomly type them all out here lol).
Idk, PA haven't came up in my mind for quite awhile, maybe it's the talk about Chicago and love/sex all that we had ytd as well as the good share amount of that related topic I got in the afternn lol (Okay looking at it this way, maybe PA is the sex symbol of my subconscious LOL).
So...uhhmm I'm not gonna deny that I wanted birthday blessings from WI even though that does nothing and they means nothing and HE MEANS NOTHING. Okay wait no, he means something, that's always gonna be the case. He's just not that important anymore, not that way, not like that. Anyways, it's late, and he probs only remember it after seeing my instagram post (yes I treasures birthdays a lot, no matter if it's my birthday or others' birthdays). Still, it's nice to get msgs from ppl you care about. Funny enough, my first thought after getting that message after the grin that I gave up on suppressing, was that, "wow, it's like the 5th or 6th birthday blessing from him I got". Idk this is gonna be just vents, but the petite idea of 'he had never missed any', is kind of like the little precious things you collect, like some moonstone kids find along the river, think it's pretty, pick it up and keep it in their little wooden/metal box like they're treasured goods from the pirates hands, little things that we treasure.
Okay more vents lol Or just more random shitty thought that I wanna let out hahaha, is that I got birthday blessings with winks and some xxs maybe from people that I have the slighest crush on HAHAHA. Not sure if you remember this but there was this guy that I thought was kind of cute and realize I have his Facebook all along for all these years, and had always wondered who the hell that is- that guy. HAHAHA. Guess I got a nice chats/hbds from all the people (I think?) I USED TO have a crush on (except PA lol which..whatever I haven't even met the guy lol and he doesn't look like the leaving-you-a-msg kind of guy to me anyways). So random, but it's surprisingly refreshing and satisfying to have these people all leave you the shortest note even just a 'hbd' that you really wna just yell wtf back and even a 'fuck u' is longer than a bullshit 'hbd' lol
* vent vent vent away *
Love always,
Soya the Stalker x
PS. This is how my blog passages will look like if I have one...(the contents at least)and it will probs be private......yes it should definitely be private
PPS. I'm not making any sense and pps is an app okay bye.
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