First thing first, HAPPY NEW YEAR BABE :) Another years gone. I still rmb getting my ass over to TSW and kinda count down with you and the other ass. First half of 2014 was long and slow to me as oppose to the second half of it. I wonder when can we count down tgt again, like in person haha. But anyways this should prolly be my last winter in HK for awhile so we might get a chance to actually act that out real soon :P Talk about being there and existence, the pleasure is all mine ♥
Phew. Don't remember where I read this perhaps from a TV drama or sth lol. But I remember seeing a quote somewhere along the lines of how we human never notice how small we are until the time when we face life and death. Truth be told in realest way possible money can solve most of the problems. And by that I'm including time and distance and all that shit cus if you have money then you can fly over to one's place all the time and if you have money you can get a house/apartment there and be close with one another. Okay, back to Ms Grandma. Don't feel guilty of thinking what you told me this morning. And besides it's not like you're wishing she'll die. It's no one's fault and certainly not yours to do anything about. It's only normal for VKG to worry about her cus honestly, he'd be kind of a heartless jerk not to (unless that's like my boy-biased grandma that I give no shit about..okay maybe I'm heartless bleh whatevs let's skip that here), and I'll ask you to reconsider if you want to be with a guy who don't even care about his grandma. Well, for distracting purposes I'll ask you to keep planning the trip. I understand it would be a totally different mood setting for him but if you guys are gonna go through it there's no reason to drag through it cus that ain't gonna solve anything but wasting the money you guys pour into the trip. I know it's not the time to bring anything much about NYC to him either, but (thank god) if she's not dying then the trip will go on :). Or oh well, you can even come up with a list of places you really wanna go in case he's not free in the middle of the trip or touchwood he has to be somewhere else at the time when your trip should be taking place, then you'll at least get to visit the places you haul a list from whatever hipster youtuber or blogs hahaha :D
It's not fine but it will be fine. So babe don't worry so much about it:) The doc said fifty fifty didn't they? I'll say the odds are high that she'll be fine :) Come on, she lived through almost a century, she knows whats up. ;)
...So I just read the last letter I wrote you. Hmm.. there are like wheees behind two paragraphs and a lot more details than I remember clearly. Whoa time really does flies. Which city are you in rn again?:) And WHY did I put a picture of noodles frying there?! Symbol for chaos? lol Okay my jumping around thoughts are kicing in again (or maybe it never left lol) Sorry in advance the letter might get harder to read in the following paragraphs although I have no idea what to type yet.
If "I haven't loved until I loved him" was the punchline for the whole thing with WI, then it might be 'I didn't know what it feels like to miss people until him'.
Okay I know I should keep typing on that and boxers. But let's talk about something lighter and happier first (not that boxers makes me sad). NYE. I don't know what you did on your NYE so I'll just have to wait for you to tell me:) Meanwhile, I'll tell you about my nothing special NYE. SO.
With nothing too specially planned, I was gonna maybe go to clubs. But I pissed my friend off by ditching him for dinner the other night where the girl I hanged out with that day decided to have dinner with her ex who doesn't like this friend, and I told her she's have my whole day to do whatever and I'm gonna give her that and go along. Okay to be frank I kind of helped in leading her to dine with her ex rather than our old friend. Cus I know she would totally regret not having dinner with her ex after going back to Australia, way more than ditching our friend who already had dinner at 6ish with some girls in Kowloon Tong and was planning to go home instead of meeting us originally. Anyways, so I pissed that guy off. So I was really hesitant on calling him on NYE where we were suppose to go to the club tgt (along with a bunch of whoevers). Blablablah and fastforward to how things ended, so I spent NYE with MK and the friend with big boobs (you know who *smirk*). With no idea where to go we went to IFC rooftop and shared the bottle of white wine I brought from my home's fridge. BB is way lighter weight than I expected. Anyways for future reference, she's the most horrible drunk person I've met. For the fact that she was singing gospels and political songs REAL LOUD around IFC and a semi-silent Hong Kong/Central MTR Station. Yep, first time using this word but it was pretty embarrassing. Oh and btw, ate my last 2014 meal at Mcdonalds with the last bite finished at 23:57, and we did (me and BB) (BB LOL) cus MK's boyfriend came over and ofc we leave them alone hehee, and she didn't call back like she promised she would at 23:30 so yeahhhh. Anyways so after the no-countdown happy new year, I dragged the drunk gospel singing BB to LKF where MK and her bf's friends are. Short story shorter, MK try to hook me up with one of her boyfriend's single friends. Whom I gotta admit was pretty cute. Okay for your curiosity, we might actually had did it if there wasn't this super slutty looking girl hauling around (black pleather bracelet and pleather skirts) (and heavy makeup! Although mine was pretty heavy that night too....*fingers pointing*). Anyways so that didn't happen. And one of the girls from that big crowd of mkbf's friends got real drunk so people are leaving so we decide to go too. Tried calling my club-host friends and they didn't pick up so it's cool cus 1-MK's feet was hurting cus she wore her sister's heels 2-BB...just.don't.even.start. So yea. We started moving and leaving LKF (met the Aus friend's ex too outside the steps of a club, where he was holding and dragging this girl and swinging around with her friends following the two. Obviously looking like a thing. Still not sure if I should tell that friend.)
Bleh okay highlight of the night (cus the night is pretty plain), met these two strangers on our way to MTR station and ended up chatting for like an hour? One was drunk one was sober. I don't care about the sober fatty (not that I care about the other one) who chatted with MK for the whole hour trying to hit on her while they looked like they were discussing business plans the whole time to me lol. Me and BB hanged out with the other dude in and our of those passport photos photobooth (hence the snapchat video featuring him not sure if you've seen it). Erm yea. We took like selfies and shits and at the end somehow I got his business card cus 1- I was curious 2- MK got fatty's business card 3-I was drunk enough to know how to flirtily ask for it which I never do when I'm sober (7 shots in a row like actually drink-throw cup-drink and it got me there when it all kick in at once). Nothing special, I guess I could call him or send the pics back to him if I want to LOL. Was bored this morning so I Facebook searched him, turns out his company is one of the biggest creative company in the world (as it claims on the bio). No wonder MK was asking for his business card cus the sober dude said she should contact him for whatever internship opportunity or something. lol. I was drunk enough (OKAY TIPSY. Nowhere close to drunk.) to be selfish and not give it to her bleh.
Okay so that was my NYE. We ended up leaving when he invite us to drink Japanese whisky which doesn't interest me and after not being able to be hooked up with that cutie (bleh truth be told I don't really care that much- not sure if that's bcs boxers was on my mind or wut. Not sure if I'll regret it if we ended up hooking up. I guess I won't know.) and I was like we'll call you another night and walked away. Send BB to her minibus station after getting off in MK and walked home from there cus I can't find a cab. First thing my mom said to me this year was: Everything on you rn looks kind of horrible. And nope she didn't stop there, the next morning when I was making myself breakfast she said it again not so causally: "I really think what you wore last night was *horrible winkle all over face* *jip*, was that the trend over that side (indicating America). You looked like you were wearing lingeries inside-out, like you were going to a PJ party." Mom, see what you did. I was just about to unblock you from Facebook. Uh-uh.
Phewwwwwww. Okay. Back to Boxers. It's funny how I wasn't even close with him in the last letter. (Not saying I am now..cus idk). It's funny how he was still one of the 'other people', 'other dude', 'couple people' in the last letter. And now suddenly he's getting all these paragraphs entitled him. lol. Okay he actually owned a couple paragraphs there. Guy who wore my XXL pj pants and guy who saw through me even though we just started to be 'friends' back then. Like he had always been this guy who's kind of in our group and sometimes we sit together for lunch if we had class in the same building that day, but he was always the kind of people who just hangs out with you during lunch cus you guys are friends with the same people (roommate with the dude I almost had lunch every day with in the past semester cus our schedule fits) so yeaaa. Ugh idk. Okay back to the missing and long distance bit. It's ...(okay gonna use the word funny again cus I cbf to think of another word that expresses a similar meaning) FUNNY. and WEIRD. How this missing feels. Guess it's my own fault to blame, for spending every last day there in their room (okay to be honest one small tiny mini eenie mo part of me thought if he got used to my existence he might miss it when it's gone). So now I'm stuck with this feeling of missing him so much. The 'so much' part of 'missing him so much' started kicking in the day I ask you about "idk how you did it". This is weird. Now I know. Long-distances are difficult, but I'm one step closer to knowing what my friends (aka you for instance:) must have felt.
Idk how to describe this. It's just weird, I guess you understand. Idk, it's just weird. And looking back to the whole timeline thing it wasn't even long. Like it only started after I came back from Atlanta aka NOV29. See! That's not even long ago! Just barely a bit over a month! And yet I've never worried that much in my entire life about something, someone. No time for the crush-or-not-doubt right away I was just worried, and concerned. Was in the I'm-scared-that-this-is... phrase until DEC2, and here I am. Missing him. Having this tacit with him (which my friend suggest wheee I WASN'T THE ONE WHO POINT IT OUT! But then again maybe she was just trying to make me happy.....). Smiling to myself like a flower when I think about him. This is a happy crush eh. Like shitty things happen like his suicide attempt and the fact that he has a girlfriend and stuff, like all these dark stuffs are involved yet this time (at least for now) I still seem happy and light about it. I don't know what's real and what's not in love as in the argument about 'true love' :S:S:S, but this is comfortable. I still remember reading this thing on COSMO where this woman who's married to her husband for 3 years said: "We've been together for 8 years- but we rarely, if ever, pee or fart right in front of each other. It's just not sexy!". WELL. We aren't couples. And I guess people have different norms. I'm pretty sure I can't be CLASSY shit and not fart or pee in front of my future VIP, imma just urge him to walk away while leaving the WC door wide open and fart outside the blanket cocoon only. HAHAHA okay why am I even talking about this bleh. I guess it's so different cus this time, for once, I'm finally crushing on someone real close, within touching distance (okay maybe not right now). I wonder if we will still be close and still have that tacit when we go back. (Btw google said camaraderie gives that meaning as well and this word sounds so pretty like a flower :3) (OKAY WHATS UP WITH ME TYPING ALL THESE CLICHE FLOWER THINGYS HERE TODAY). (Sorry for shouting).
Hmm. Making moves..
Ah. Btw. First of all. Whatever it is and however things will turn out in the future (excuse me for whatever tense problem I refuse to read the last line to find out cus it might be major), thanks for saying what you said in the last letter cus that totally beamed my morning (okay it was a bit after noon) up :)
This guy. Oh well. He makes me happy. Idk. And you're right he's very much crazy hahaha. Not sure if I told you this already I think I might had. But he literally started appearing on my mind after one of those late night chats with my closest friend I have there, who said the guy she thinks would suit me will be someone very much crazy. Hm yea, he's defo that.
Everytime I say it feels different with the new crush (or did I?). But this one definitely is different from the past ones. Maybe everyone of the crushes are different. (Speaking of which, this album from Karen O called Crush Songs is pretty cute, and it's just on Spotify so help yourself! Hehee). Maybe I'm starting to think too much again, maybe I'm just over reading into things I don't even plan to read into maybe I just have too much time on hands right now to think about him. I dunno.
But oh well, the latest thing from him that made me happy was a picture he post that he took while we were at the bubble tea place, and he captioned missing the bubble tea gang. AND BOOYA! Sucker said he don't miss people! BOOYAAAAWWOOOHOOOOOOO. Uh-hem. And, erm, I was the first name he tagged in that post, WHEHEEE. Okay allow me to be a little too excited too happy here cus I think this is something worth happy-ing for, even as friends (bleh) :D
Barely 18 days and it feels like a month and a couple and maybe more and definitely more. This is merely half way in through the break and I still gotta wait for more than 2 other weeks until I can see him again, and looking back I only got close with him for like how long? 19? 19 days. Then we were off back to home. Isn't this weird. Like 17 more days. Shit ton can change. The friendship and all that camaraderie (don't even know if this is the right way to use the word lol) didn't even exist before those 19 days. Pretty sure I know it will be a false assumption when I said maybe this all will go away after the break, maybe I'll hit the clubs and meet some random hookups thats distracting/cute/whatever enough and I won't care about Boxers anymore but that's all fake. Babe I hope you can meet VKG on 5th cus I know you've been waiting for this for a very long time :) And you deserve that jennim kinda NYC trip with your beau *smooch*
Boxers's gf..sigh idk. Instinct tells me there will be problems coming up between them and idk if I'd wish that's a fixable dilemma or the other way. I really don't know.
Talk soon and lol as in lots of love xxxo
random playlist (with no order) with an attempt of making it look more artsy than just typing it out annd bleh but whatevs
This is how I started hanging out there every night. Exactly how. Except the title of the article was
Adorable Comics Of A QUIRKY COUPLE Spending Time Together
This is only one semester and yet I'm already so attached. What happens after a year. What if we break up (as friends. Like stop hanging out and stop liking each other anymore [AS FRIENDS]). And what happens after 4 years. I'm definitely over thinking right here but I'm never the attaching kind you know. And this attachment feeling scares me. Scares the crap out of me. I've never missed people. Like I talk about missing them in the 'aww I miss you so much' girls way (I miss you too don't worry. but it's just not the same :/ It doesn't feel the same. No where the same). Like it actually aches with the urge of I WANT TO SEE YOU SO MUCH I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I KNOW YOU'RE UPDATING YOUR FACEBOOK AND I CAN READ THE UPDATES BUT CALL ME GREEDY OR WHATEVER THAT'S JUST NOT ENOUGH I WANT YOU I WANT TO SEE YOU I WANT TO HEAR YOU I WANT TO SEE YOU SMILE I WANT TO SEE YOUR NOSE SHIT HIDING IN YOUR NOSE I WANT TO HEAR YOUR UGLY VOICE YES IM GONNA CALL IT UGLY ALTHOUGH YOU WERE IN CHOIR BEFORE AND DO YOU KNOW YOU NOSTRILS GOES BIGGER WHENEVER YOU SINGS AND I WANT YOU TO TAKE MY FOOD WITHOUT ASKING AND WALK AROUND FLIPPING YOUR HAIR AND FART FOR NO REASON AND ID LAUGH AND FART NEEDS NO REASON okay guess this is the real last sentence of this letter instead of the xxxo upstairs lol okaybye.
